Wow, so much has changed in the few years. So much good was surrounded by such sadness and feelings of defeat during those years. There are things I wish I could have told myself then. Stop, breathe, and enjoy the now. I tried so hard to control my life that I really didn't live it. I look back at 2010, 2011, and 2012 and think there were so many good memories masked by the struggles of infertility and loss. The pain is a powerful one. I just wish I took more time to let in the good.