Monday, August 4, 2014

Breastfeeding failures

 I could not breastfeed. Turns out that pesky hypothyroidism and PCOS had one last laugh! I produced just enough for him to have a little snack not enough to get actual nourishment. And that is also supported by 2 doctors and a lactation consultant. I did put him to breast every feed but then supplemented with formula. I get pretty defensive when it comes to this topic. I had people actually tell me I am a bad mother. I tried everything to build my supply.

My doctor suggested Reglan. I said a be fat hell no! Those side effects are horrific! I tried tea, supplements, cookies (bad idea with IR PCOS), frequent feeding pumping interval, lactation groups... You name it I tried it. Well, no prescription drugs. I like my Dopamine levels in my brain unaffected unless it is life or death. I worked with psych patients too long to agree to any drug that has these side effects. The drug basically works by, simply put, decreasing Dopamine in a certain area of the brain then in turn increasing prolactin levels. Dopamine and Prolactin work in opposition of each other. Why you may hear certain medications and class action lawsuits of teen boys developing breast or lactating on commercials. It is also secreted into breast milk. Babies have immature blood-brain barriers. Which could increase the risk for Tardive Dyskinesia (TD). I did not like anything about adding another med or putting us both at risk of some hefty side effects.

I continued to put to breast until I went back to work. It was hard enough to maintain a shitty supply home all day. I was impossible to keep my supply after going back to work 12 hours a day. Pumping was impossible while at home. Most I got was 1/2oz. So, formula all the way!!

*I will not tolerate any bashing for not being able to breastfeed. Remember what you learned as a child. If you can't say anything nice DON'T say anything at all!

Finally here!

He is finally here! Through years of infertility, Hypothyrodism, PCOS, and gestational diabetes. I can't believe it! All the fighting, crying, researching, doctors visits, and medications he is here and healthy. 6lbs 9oz 20 inches.

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

PCOS the gift that keeps on giving.

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. Pregnancy was going well until I took the Glucose Tolerance Test. I failed that bad boy with flying colors with a 195. There you are PCOS, it is not like you will let me forget you during the pregnancy you tried so hard to not make happen! Well, the Metformin is working. I am not having the spikes as long as I avoid all processed food. I now go for weekly biophysical profiles which is just a mini ultrasound and twice weekly Nonstress Test. Ah what high risk status entails. It is actually pretty relaxing sitting in a recliner for about 20-45 minutes twice a week listening to my baby's heart beat.

But I have to laugh with my husband about PCOS. I have obviously had it since I can remember but just diagnosed with it when TTC. I have hair in places women shouldn't. I still have acne in my mid 30's and everyone in my family would talk shit that I was not washing my face otherwise I would have clear skin. After puberty I got fat and was told by so many that I would be pretty if only I was thin. My random cycle have caused embarrassment during adolescence. Nothing like being 13 years old in junior high getting my period unprepared. Fast forward to adulthood and the only diet that truly works is a diet that will cause most likely kidney damage and heart disease... Atkins. My cycle work like clockwork while on that diet though. Not too sure about ovulating since I was in my early 20's and definitely did not want a baby. I miscarried because of one of the two undiagnosed hypothyroidism and PCOS. I believed it was more the thyroid. And fertility drugs were needed since I don't ovulate but once or twice a year. Now Gestational Diabetes which means most likely I will get it in my future. Oh PCOS is always the tricky little bitch and the gift that keeps on giving!